Recovery
I know that it has been a few days since my last post. I unfortunately got very, very ill and have been unable to write. Lots of narcotic pain medication tends to make my brain alot like chunky soup- between that and an unbelievably high fever and presto! You have brain soup!
I have a rather nasty habit of failing to verbalize how crappy I really feel. This is a very, very bad thing. No matter how you cut it, its a habit that I really do need to break. Normally, its not a problem, I get a little sick, I get over it. Not much to it really. I never have had a problem -not- getting better from something. That is, until now. When you are on immunosuppresive medication you rarely just “get better”. In fact by the time that you realize you are sick, you are too sick to just get better without the aid of medication and doctors visits. This time it was a real wake up call. I was admitted to the hospital with a fever of 103.7 degrees F, a heart rate of 160 BPM, pain off the scale of one to ten, massively dehydrated and generally dillusional and hallucinating. I was sick enough that I didn’t have to wait in the waiting room of a public hospital, which again, is one of those things that screams “idoit! you shouldn’t have waited so long”. Within an hour of walking in the door of the hospital I was told that I needed to have Emergency surgery to lance an abscess. The infection contained in said abscess is what made me so very sick. By 3 pm I was being prepped for surgery and nearly 2 hours later I was being woken up. The sad part is, that I felt better. After surgery, but I felt about a million percent better. That could have been a combonation of the meds to knock me out and the synthetic morphine they were pumping into me every two hours, but I dont think so. The pain that I am dealing with now, in recovering from the surgery, is totally different. I think that small difference is what makes it so tolerable.
Its about time for me to take more medication, antibiotics now, pain meds in two hours. I will be back soon- Wish me luck!