Happy Mothers Day, Mommy.
I wanted to do a slideshow for my mom for mothers day. The only problem with this was that I don’t have the proper programming to be able to do it. This makes things kinda hard when you are not only broke but don’t even have the means to make your mother something for mothers day. How freakin sad, right? Five year olds around the world were pasting together macaroni pictures and I don’t even have the money to buy the freakin macaroni! And even if I did have the money and the macaroni, it would likely become dinner…
I’m very glad that my family doesn’t put alot of stock in presents. I hope that my little phone call, while her phone was dying, was enough to make her smile. Maybe one day I will be able to buy her flowers and diamonds. She deserves it. I know that alot of people say that they have the best mother around, and to their situation they are probably right, but thats for them. My mother is very special, and incredibly strong. I don’t know how it is that she has managed her life thus far. I sometimes cry for her, because I feel like she doesn’t cry for herself cause she is so very busy taking care of everyone else. I love you, Mama. You are my inspiration to keep going. If you can deal with what you do and still come out clean and smelling like roses, then I shouldn’t complain so much about my life. You make me remember that no matter what, you just have to get up in the morning. No matter how badly you don’t want to bother, you just wipe off the dust pull your head up over your shoulders and keep looking for the crack. That one peice of light, that one ray of hope that things might change. And knowing that even if they don’t and you never find that crack, you distracted yourself from being upset by looking for it. Maybe that is what God is, the crack we all look for in the dark. The outline of hope, the promise of something better at the end of the day. I know its a bit late, but Happy Mothers Day, Mom. They should have it more than just one day a year to honor the women that take care of us without a selfish bone in their bodies…One day is not enough.